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I remember being obsessed with death. It was not an infatuation, it was a fear. I was six years old; I listened as all the kids in my class recounted memories of falling off of horses or dreams of the bogeyman. My greatest fear was dying. Now that I am older, I know that I couldn't possibly have understood what death even meant, but that doesn't change the fact that I knew that I didn't want it to happen to me.
My friends and I used to play on the playground, claiming we could talk to ghosts. My friends never knew I actually saw them. This probably conjures up images of those creepy children you see in horror movies--the ones with dark secrets and empty eyes. In truth, I was a very happy, very well-adjusted little blonde girl. I wore pink. I owned a tea set. The only odd thing about me was the fact that my imaginary friends weren't living. In retrospect, I was probably afraid of dying because I was too excited about life. Who wants to die when you haven't lost your first tooth yet?
Now that I've gotten older, I haven't exactly adjusted to the inevitability of death. People fight with their beliefs their entire lives, only to find out in the end that it doesn't matter what you think. You take what you get. I've sort of adapted this philosophy early on. I still fear dying, but being horribly mangled seems worse somehow. My only issue with the cycle of life is the fact that I can't control it. (And by all means this doesn't only apply to death.)
Hence, the inspiration for this project. On Ice is a way for me to control and overpower those things that I have feared and questioned since childhood. I can turn something ominous into something beautiful. The concept of putting something on ice brings to mind several images for me. I see death, preservation, cold and most importantly, change. Ice is living matter--it is constantly in flux--we can manipulate it, but it will always revert back to its original state. Ice is something I can not claim to have power over. This site is a dedication to the things I don't understand and cannot control